I’m thinking about an apology that I never got and probably never will get. Your indifference is costing me sleep
I think I hate you now more than I ever have. God.
I probably hate myself more than you, though. Waiting for you for so long. Letting myself hope that maybe we were growing back together. I’m an idiot
I’m thinking about what I would say to you if I saw you right now. Would I even be able to look you in the eye? I can’t take those eyes
I bet I’m not the only one that likes your eyes
You make me feel so inadequate and I hate that but what I hate more is that you have this overwhelming effect on me. I’m absolutely pathetic
I’m just a stupid girl
Why am I thinking about you at this time of night? Why am I even thinking about you at all?
You’re definitely not thinking about me. Or dreaming about me, if you’re asleep. Which you probably are not. I know you, and you don’t sleep
Yet another night for you to ruin for me. GET OUT OF MY HEAD
I’m so tired but I can’t sleep. I’m tired of you and I’m tired of thinking about you
How do you live with yourself?
I’m not even 100% sure if I hate you. Maybe I don’t. You make things so complicated and you mess with my mind and it’s so damn frustrating
For a few hours, I thought things might be okay. I thought things might stay okay. I’m not okay with you anymore
The thing is, I should be done with you. Why do I care what you do? Why do I care what you act like? I shouldn’t
I just put myself back together and now you’ve come back to shatter me again. You don’t even want me. You want me to want you
I should sleep. Mother will be angry
You should sleep too. You should just give everything a rest.